WOW! Where do I start?
I am openly GUILTY of not posting in…
FOREVER!!!
Why?
Well, as an understatement, my life has been CHAOTIC.
My partner and I broke up (after 2 years).
My world CRUMBLED.
My mind, like a seizing boat thrashing back and forth in a violent storm, ran through the whole gamut of emotions from disbelief, to anger, resentment, bitterness, optimism, desperation, attachment, peace, depression, uncertainty, insecurity, despair, wonder, and an entire SHIFT in my paradigm.
When we broke up, everything I thought I knew shattered. I had made all my decisions based upon the fact of this partner for life, and building for us together. Moving to this small town, etc etc. Then, I questioned my decisions, my path, my goals, my commitments, my desires, my situation…
I am taking it day by day. I recently moved out, which is is huge (so I can begin to heal), so I am beginning a new life. New journey. New opportunities. More love. More growth. More experiences, more passion, joy, excitement, energy, success, challenges, and so forth. (Just have to turn the words into something I wholeheartedly believe and embrace and into something that invigorates me!!)
With this huge transition, there have been some changes in my normal “routine” that are relevant to this blog. One thing is that I have been cooking WAY less. I was not at home much in the period after the breakup/before I moved out, and then now that I am at this new place, I am not home as much as well, because I am keeping myself busy, and also the kitchen is much smaller. Although I truly enjoy and prefer cooking and eating all my meals at home, right now I am eating out more and I am okay with it, given the circumstances.
Another thing is that my workouts are ummm “different”?? Rather than hitting the gym, I have been trying a bunch of different classes! 😉 I have taken two different boxing classes, a kickboxing class, two kettlebell classes, one hot Vinyasa yoga class, one Parkour class, one gymnastics class, mmm what else lol…err I think that’s it? I have also been starting to dance again a little bit and doing as much of all these things as I can, taking into consideration my bum shoulder n knee! ;P
Message to self #1: Before the break up, every morning I would religiously meditate and harness a great amount of energy and LOVE and passion and purpose and joy and wellness to myself (and others). I need to regenerate the authentic, loving, joyous, powerful, healthy, motivating ENERGY in my HEART.
Message to self #2: This is not the end, this is the BEGINNING.
Inspirational Quotes for me and you 😉
“Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning ~Sir Winston Churchill (1874 – 1965)
“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.” ~Seneca (Roman philosopher, mid-1st century AD)
“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” ~T.S. Eliot (American born English Editor, Playwright, Poet and Critic, 1888-1965)
“Let your mind start a journey thru a strange new world. Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before. Let your soul take you where you long to be…Close your eyes let your spirit start to soar, and you’ll live as you’ve never lived before.” ~Erich Fromm (German born American social Philosopher and Psychoanalyst, 1900-1980)
“It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end” ~Ursula K. LeGuin (American Writer best known for tales of science fiction, b.1929)
“I haven’t a clue as to how my story will end. But that’s all right. When you set out on a journey and night covers the road, you don’t conclude the road has vanished. And how else could we discover the stars?”
“On a long journey of human life, faith is the best of companions; it is the best refreshment on the journey; and it is the greatest property.” ~Buddha (the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)
“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours – it is an amazing journey – and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.” ~Bob Moawad
“A warrior seeks to act rather than talk.” ~Carlos Castaneda (Peruvian born American best-selling Author and Writer, 1925-1998)
“The hardest thing in the world is to assume the mood of a warrior. It is of no use to be sad and complain and feel justified in doing so, believing that someone is always doing something it us. Nobody is doing anything to anybody, much less to a warrior.” ~Carlos Castaneda
Okay, all, I have officially spilled my guts! Any comments, quotes, feedback, or anything would be deeply appreciated. You know it! Much <3 <3 <3 and x’s and o’s
~K
JUN
